you'd notice her, if you looked, a stick girl, tall for her age, carrying around a split lip and a bruised heart like a weapon, like a reason. she needs a reason, something to keep her from breaking.
i do not love you.
i never respected you.
i didn't need you, then or now.
you smashed me, broke me down. i had nothing, but i wanted you, because you were there and oh how i wanted you. but still i didn't have you.
you knew i only had you and you made sure i knew because you pulled my hair and addressed me, 'bitch', and i came as i was called. then you would put bandaids on my skin and pull me close and say 'shh shh, i love you'. but
she's marked. tattooed to her back, skin stretched across bones so stuck-out its alien, is X. she is X, and cannot not be so. It is on her, on her flesh, on her bow-shaped mouth, on her breath in, breath out, in, out. X is tagged into her brain. she cannot escape this thought, this one single moment of time and memory and regret because she is marked. she is X.
she got out fast. there is too much love. it surrounds her; suffocates her. she's fading with every chloroformed term of endearment. but it follows her, with every floor-board creak and silver slice of skin and forget. she cannot escape X.
she remembers a morni